I want to say that I feel at home no matter where it is at, because I am with the hubs. However, thats not quite how I am feeling as of late. I think my surroundings really affect me. I am really bummed about spring coming and not being able to plant a garden this year. I miss our old apartment (I don't really miss the commute that would come with it). I miss having windows that face every direction so there was always sunlight in the house. I miss having an office/aka craft room that I could turn into a giant disaster when I felt like getting creative, and then close the door and leave it like that when I was done. I haven't sewn or made a thing since we moved, and that makes me really sad. I miss having more space than I need so that I can host awesome game nights and have lots of family over. I liked being a hostess and I don't feel like I can entertain here.
I totally feel like a whiner. I am not living in a shack or a dangerous neighborhood. In fact, its a rather well to do neighborhood, but for one reason or another, it just really doesn't feel like a good fit. So what am I to do? When our lease is up in August, I am pretty sure we will move closer to both of our jobs now that they are both further north and closer together. Do we try to stay by family? Do I try to find another two flat? Do I get over it and move into a smaller apt to be able to save more money to buy a home? I just don't know, but I am feeling super unsettled about it at the moment. What really makes a place feel like home?
A shot of out old apartment with some of the furniture I sold.
Maple was so good to us :)