I Will Wait

When we were driving to the hospital to deliver Grayson the song "I Will Wait" by Mumford and Sons was on the radio.  It was also on the radio when we drove to my mom's service, as well as Jon's Uncle Bob's service last night.

So now I have a thing with this song just like a junior high girl who is infatuated with the song she shares with her new boyfriend.  Apparently music is able to take a stab at my maturity level.

Now this is "my" song.  At least for the moment.  It's no K-Ci and JoJo "All my Life," but it has spoken to me none the less.

Here are the lyrics that I want to dissect like an English teacher wants to dissect Romeo and Juliet.  I want to find the hidden message.

And I came home

Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun

And I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So break my step
And relent
You forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way
Shake the excess

But I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
That tethered mind free from the lies

But I'll kneel down
Wait for now
I'll kneel down
Know my ground

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow

Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

I know it sounds cheesy, but I do feel like God was able to use this song to speak to my soul.  Only my soul is a little slow.  He really had to dumb it down for me and use a single word.  

Wait.

Wait for your sweet baby boy.  Take each contraction as it comes.  Take every milestone in.  Rise up to every parenting challenge.  Stop rushing, just wait.

Wait for your mom to walk through heaven's gates.  Take in each memory, each hug, each kiss, each cuddle.  Take snap shots with your mind.

Wait in your marriage.  Be patient.  Stop running.  Be present.

Wait and bask in the love that currently surrounds you.  You are loved.  You are O.K.  You don't always have to be the strong one.

So I have tried to do just that.  I am trying to slow down, and just wait.  See how life unfolds and what direction and adventure my family is to embark on next. I want the next season of my life to develop and unfold.  I am trying to be present in life's little moments, while I am so keenly aware of how fleeting they are.  

Raise my hands, paint my spirit gold, and bow my head, Keep my heart slow.

Songs seem to quickly transport us back to seasons in our lives.  I waver between never wanting to return to this season and the feelings I have, and at the same time never wanting it to end.  This has been a season of the happiest happies with the crappiest crappies.  It will be interesting to see what feeling washes over me when I hear that song in years to come, but for now, I will listen to God's urging and just wait.

Luckily this little stinker is so cute while he refuses to nap.  I will wait and hang out with you all day my little lovie.